sely’s life journey

i born with name sely martini… sely from my grandpa-my father side, his name is syehali… and martini is from my grandpa-my mother side, he said that i born in march and tini is nick name for women in sundanese culture… tini mean the beloved women… so i m beloved women who born in march… i like my name… so simple…  but, sometimes people from west or someone who like west civilization… martini is their drink… i dont care coz actually they love it to drink…

if you looking for me… you can find me @

ym id: selym97 or http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=5194558

but if you ask me who you are… i will aswer:

I am Sely Martini, I am Free, Kind and Responsible Women…

it sound so narcis… but i want to be that women… the one who fell free to fly… has no sand in her shoes… very kind to others… and very responsible in her life…

can i be that women? it is part of my dream… and i believe i can reach my dream…

i used to be a cheerfull women, always talk… talk… and talk…

i talking to anybody about my self… bout my secret… i trust everyone… till someone treat me bad coz of my careless life… i feel bad bout it… i loose him… i loose brotherhood… i loose everything i love… i hate him…

but then i think to see the world in different way… the other way around… very different from i was before…

i try to be silence… and then i love it… i get more knowledge… coz i learn to listen… i think silence makes me a better person… coz i spend more time to listen to others… and i got new view… new knowledge… new idea… how people deal with their life… and that is a new input for my life… i learn from other experiences…

i try to see the other person who always critized me as volunteer friends… yup, they be the one who voluntering to give their energy to looking for my fault… so, it make me easy to evaluate my self… i think their are true friend… even i dont like being critized… maybe in the first time i hear it… i will be upset and then i will feel blessing coz  then i know my fault… but i dont like prejudice… in my religion prejudice is a sin… but sometimes people dont realized to make it… coz it play zone is in our mind… i dont like people throw their prejudice to me… but the important is i dont throw it to others…

so, after i change my point of view… i feel different… when i found sand in my shoes… i change my shoes… and then start to run again… run to reach my dream…

so simple isn’t it?

yupe, i m a simple women with complicated mind…

i always try to get what i want… sometimes it is not so hard for me to get what i want… the Almighty always give me what i want… thank to You, God… i always lucky… or maybe always feel lucky… it has no different for me… i feel happy with it… no burden…

i always try to make my self happy… so selfish isn’t it? but i have to take care of my self… if i put my self in bad condition… and i feel not happy so who else will do it? if i am happy… i will smile… i will have energy to help other… or minimaly i will not make trouble… and you will happy isn’t it?…

lets stop here… stop talking bout my self… it time for me to listen to you…

how are you? what are you doing?

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